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6th December 2006

Monday, January 28, 2013

Thought I might as well write, since I'm here.

Life continues to be full of ups and downs, right and lefts, detours and shortcuts.
Got a headache now, and it feels terrible. Sometimes, I really think I am going to die. 5 days of headache?

My convictions for God are burning brightly.
Sometimes, I let my tongue slip, but I still feel honest inside.

People change over the years, and even change from day to day.
I think I'm glad, and will continue to be glad. But, I just ask for faith, because sometimes, life is just hard.
Escape to the land of sheep and grass. Heaven of stars.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

600th Post.
I'm happy with how i've grown since the times of the 599th post.
Thanks to God.
Who made the heavens and the earth.
And who made me.

I'm a Christian.
Under the tutelage of Jesus,
Submitted to His purpose,
According to His righteousness
And in the midst of His plan.

4 years might have gone.
I might have accomplished much in man's eyes.
But, I have not accomplished much in God's eyes.
Good works i have done little of,
But, Faith I have grown.
And, I will accomplish more in the next many years.
At least in God's eyes.

Thursday, August 09, 2007

its my 599th post..
sigh... i think i'm going to stay up the entire night...
dun feel like sleeping today...
shall go spend time alone....

Thursday, May 10, 2007

my new combined blog with davina dearest =)

www.matthiasanddavina.blogspot.com

please do visit =)

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

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i have new hamsters, bibi and bobo.. thats bobo ^ there.
he's been running nonstop the entire night.... i've been kept awake by the squeaking of the wheel but he finally went to sleep this morning..
On another note.....
SM interview today. Wonder what things will be like... Hmm.. Sure got issues to iron out. After all, we have our own paths, our own personal relationship with Him, and personal convictions that might differ from person to person. =)
CSC camp... will be getting busier and busier... hmm... wish it didn't take up tt much time, but that we could all just participate and have fun tgt, but of course, its important to give time to build on things to bond people, and help the camp grow together.
A whole load of other things cropping up as well, looks like a busy 3 months.
Exam results also bugging me a little, i'm a little worried for a few of my subjects. but all trust in God.
Trust in God. Its something you must always repeat to yourself when you're feeling disappointed with life or with people. He will make things alright.
Which brings me to the next point which i find interesting. (Something for readers)
Biological Essentialism/Evolution of the Mind
Intelligent People vs Intellectual People vs the UnIntelligent/Non-intellectual.
Whats the difference? (of course we can say its all comparative)
Going by Academic Grades, everyone is intelligent... and the more intelligent people are those that score better?
But.
Don't you always wander that perhaps the person that kept quiet the most knows the most and actually had much wiser and more relevations to reveal than the person that seems to know everthing. Truly, the intelligent person keeps quiet. But to disclaim that previous point, the intelligent person does not always keep quiet, but chooses to keep quiet at the right times. The intelligent person is someone that truly epitmoises the phrase, "more than meets the eye". The truly intelligent person does not have any need to show his intelligence. He can be as plain as can be. Truly, never judge a book by its cover.
And the same goes for intellectuals who perhaps have an entirely unique way of thinking. Dyslexics like Lee Kuan Yew is an intellectual. His Son Lee Hsien Loong is an intellectual.
Perhaps you can see it from the way they think, forged both by genetics and by their environment and experiences. Each of them is unique, but they are surely complex in nature.
The Unintelligent people/Non-intellectuals?
What are they like? They are unique too... i'd like to call them the simpletons. They generate order in the disorder of complexity. They create lines that are otherwise greyed. They are just what you see them to be, an honest representation of who they are, and for that, they must be commended.
Its crazy to come up with classifications like these. But, they are evident in our world today. Which do you want to be though? In sociological or psycho-social terms, perhaps you might see the intelligents as the present, the intellectuals as the future and the unintelligent/Non-intellectuals as the past. But now we must question, which is truly better, the past, the present or the future, and perhaps you might understand yourself and this world a little more.
I'm probably an intellectual. But yet i see time reversed as the solution to our problems.
The ends does not justify the means and is the means and the ends in itself.
On Another Note.
I'm missing my darling. my dearest davina... its nice to have found your soulmate.
and i shall cherish her every single day of my life.
We face troubles and obstacles in our way. But we shall start together and finish together.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Mr Frederick R. Sabapathy left earth today. He left behind a legacy of inspiring memories, with his wife.
And i thought to myself... He was a great man, and he'd be happy to see how many he has touched and inspired; not just to be successful servants of God, but loving people.
Whilst i might not have been close to him, his motivation to be a God-centered man truly amazes. I respect and admire what he has done for his wife as well, through thick or thin, always enjoying, always loving her. I want to do the same for my dearest.
I have my shortcomings, and perhaps i might not be as docile and sweet a man as Mr Fred once was, but i'll continue trying my best and working towards that attitude he carried. I too, want to continue not just his legacy, but God's purpose for him and for me; something we share in common. An outstanding role model for me to follow, encapsulated in his death today, i will forever remember him and his wife "Matron" (Patricia) just as she said she'll always remember me, the "commando" in her eyes (through the days i went to alpha to lead in my army uniform), and charged me to always serve God in my own ways. Thank you Mr Fred, you're one of the founders of my church, Bethesda Frankel Estate Church, and i am happy you're in heaven right now.

On a separate note, my dear has been struggling through her exams over the last few weeks, and her papers have been hard, and her time short. I just pray and want to post a note of encouragement here for her. Darling... i am with you. keep going and lets live that life pleasing to God, not just to succeed but to share His love with all those around. Its one more day for you, and we've come so far, even though its just one semester. Look forward, not just to tomorrow but to the days of salvation and when we will reach heaven. I will stay by your side always, and i want to see you through till the day you'll reach his almighty kingdom. With you darling, always. =) i know you might not see this now, but i always love you, and i'll try my best to always show it and make it known. your dearest... =)

Friday, April 13, 2007

i just wish i were right sometimes
and so many people wouldn't see me as wrong.
sorry everyone.
i am true to my heart, and i'll always be true to God.
i will walk away one day, in my heart, faultless.
in your eyes, a sinner.
but i am true to God and to what he impresses in my heart.
i'm different
i'm a deviant.
but i'm e deviant towards God.

i always wonder.
ALWAYS.
Why won't God help when it matters so much.
Why he allows the most impossible thing happen, that we might suffer.
its God. it truly is.
but i will always remember.
that it all doesn't matter.
what matters cannot be measured.

we are all false preachers of his word.
we all fall short of his purpose.
Singapore is doomed the minute we allow ourselves to embrace the world.
i am doomed.
i shall go to hell some day.
and know it was because i didn't have enough courage to stand up.

sigh.
u know life is always unfair.
it always is
the good people who helps everyone else never does well because no one really helps her in return.
u know... sometimes you can do so much, yet achieve so little.
sigh.
maybe we're all fools chasing after perfection.
sigh i'm mean
and i don't wanna study anymore.
i want to get away from all this unfairness

Soci, the way of seeing.
Truly. Everyone sees things their one way, me included.
And thats the beauty of it, Sociology does not have any particular way of seeing things.
U imagine, U link, U create.
Thats it, thats sociology.
Oh yes, it might be dull and demoralising if what you see is just something someone else has seen before and really, its nothing new. But thats the beauty. You see it, and you Must See more.

u look through the smallest of cracks, and yet you can see the whole world.
and i promised my darling a present this small --> .
haha =) it could be so dense. expansion is always a real possibility.
yet we cannot lose sight of the dot. *laughs

Anyway i need prayers for my EG1109 Statics module because i've been really doing quite badly, and i just ask for prayers to help me get a decent grade.
Besides that.

Gd luck and God bless to u all taking ur exams.
"Hold on firmly to all thatn will last forever, and not material wealth."
Like. Friendships =)
and people you love.
i love my darling so so much.. so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much.

Heaven is waiting for us.