disappointing me.

sigh! its like i guess u know, how things are out of my hands again...
i'm not really sad by like whats happening....
i just dun like to see people leave e church i have so much heart for...
to me, every single person tt wants to leave church is such a stumbling block, that no longer can i continue to make a difference in their lives, no longer can i show them God, no longer can i help them through their walk with God.
and its SAD its so SAD. and i wonder why
i know that it was bound to happen, it just seemed like it was heading that way...
and like i couldn't interfere at all... and things were just tt way, and i tried my best, but yet it still turned out this way... after everything...
after it all...
she still wants to leave... i just pray that wherever she goes, whevere she is, she doesn't lose sight of God, and that God will continue to guide her .....
i guess, at least she remembers that, and in befriending her, i guess i did what i could, i showed her all that...
there is no mountain too big, got cannot move it, there is no problem too small, got cannot solve it.... sigh this song, a song full of hope... and what i quoted to her when she wanted to leave.... like all problems will be solved.... cos God will solve it all
if there's a mountain to be moved, God will move it...
abt that, i'll pray.
i guess like people lack compassion, lack forgiving others in this world today...
i was with my sec sch friends playing soccer, and all they could think about was clubbing and all.... and u really wonder, like even in church, so many people indulge in all that...
and i was thinking, how hypocritical it all is, and now i really realise i respect those people that do not lead that double life....
rather its those people that do that irk me more, and my friends are right.
but tts not life, thats not life for me, thats not life for others.... we make our own lives.....
just like 8 hours ago, e small deb called me and told me she was scared and she was thinking too much... and she tried calling others, but no one answered.. and i was e other number she recalled. and i answered...
yet she kept telling me how she didn't call me cos she wanted, more of cos her friends weren't there and i was like e one left. well at least she's okay.... yet u know, u wonder, like would u wanna be placed 3rd on the list? u would want to be there right. but i accept it =) some things i cannot bring to her, there are barriers. but well e poor girl is so scared, and i hope she's alright now... i hope God calms her fears.
"blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God"
ahnd gone will be all the nightmares, the thoughts...
so well, an eventful morning for me, i'm looking forward to collecting this nice pair of shoes kevin did for me =) really thank him, its a lot of effort...11am. tts soon
yet like .. it seems so much has gone by.