mood

i know why i'm feeling a little moody today.
like i realise why, i realise that despite all the people i talked to today, i never really managed to connect with anyone...
like between everyone, they can just talk to each other about all kinda things
like really nonsense, or like about the hot girl or guy
and i feel so old next to them..
like that doesn't concern me now...
other things do.....
n there are people i really wanna just talk to and like
build up the relationship, but i just feel like there's no opportunity to, they're not interested, or some reason or the other, or i'm finding it hard to trust them cos they seem to trust others much more than they trust me...
i feel i can't hang out in a group anymore
i'm too old for all the jokes and all...
i need serious, heartwarming chats...that means something to me
i'm e little ol fogey around now, and i can't lie about my age, i am what i am...
thats in church
i feel out cos like i don't need to know whats happening around me,
btu yet u wish someone would tell u..
rather than it all happens and u get kept in the dark
not knowing, aimlessly blindly groping around
looking for the lights
like u don't care about it, but u just want to see it
its okay living in the dark, but if see the lights next door keep switching on....
u would wanna know whats there right.
and that everyone outside that actually walks by does not help u to on e switch
its a weird feeling
but oh well
i'm okay with it. =) like ya..
u know!
cos
it prob doesn't concern me much
and i don't need to interefere with other peoples business, unless its important that i do
and like besides....
i am what i am....
like yeah
when i am needed i';ll be there
haha
oh well =) thoughtsd anre more thoughts
i dun really know anymore
but i just feel like a game thats being played
and like u wish that it'll come to life a little more
that you can actually get involved.

like zathura
like jumanji

today i met someone really interesting.....