connection problems
well not really connection problems.
people always wonder why i'm so different from my dad... its because i choose to be different. i belive that what he is and what he has achieved has made him into a person i don't wanna be... we all learn from our parents.. in many ways i've learnt not to be what he is... yes. contrary to popular belief.. though probably being more like him would have ensured my future and i would have been much more successful. i'm not going to be a successful man, i'm not going to be a high achiever. whatever i achieve is thanks to God. and has nothing whatsoever to do with me.
well today hasn't been a particularly pleasant day... when my dad doesn't get what he wants... well days are never pleasant... it all began when he wants to use my computer... so i say.. "i brought it, can't i use it first? u can use it afterwards" ... he of course refuses and says "its not your computer, its from me, so i am going to take it back and use it" then i say..." then why didn't u bring it yourself?" then he says.. "we are bringing the computer along so i can do my work" (i know what he's doing. clearing his email... work? SIGH. oh well.) i say.. "but i brought it, i wanted to bring it so i can connect myself and do my own stuff, u just said u wanted to use it here and there" he says.. "i want it for 2 hours." and then the argument repeats itself.. this goes on everytime we look for a food place, everytime i tell him we should just tip a little bit more... anyway, he's probably gonna use it anyway.. cos he wants to take it back if he doesn't get to use it... i guess.. well he even refuses to pay for my bread for tomorrow... so i had to pay for our breakfast tomorrow (my brother and i)... i really sigh at this. call me disrespectful, call me biased, or even childish... but i belive i'm old enough to follow my own principles and values....
no one ever wants to wash dirty linen in public... but. we are already transparent enough to God. what does it differ making ourselves transparent to the people we love so much. love thy neighbour.. love ur enemies... love your brother and sister. so anyway... well... i don;t know what the future holds..?
sometimes... can u owe someone so much.... that u have to submit and succumb to his every wish and fancy? perhaps as parents we owe them that much.. but as people... we just choose whether to give our respect...
- when do u know u are right.... when right or wrong is not determined by us, but by God's moral law... -
we never do... we just pray and hope that God tells us.
in his name, god bless...
people always wonder why i'm so different from my dad... its because i choose to be different. i belive that what he is and what he has achieved has made him into a person i don't wanna be... we all learn from our parents.. in many ways i've learnt not to be what he is... yes. contrary to popular belief.. though probably being more like him would have ensured my future and i would have been much more successful. i'm not going to be a successful man, i'm not going to be a high achiever. whatever i achieve is thanks to God. and has nothing whatsoever to do with me.
well today hasn't been a particularly pleasant day... when my dad doesn't get what he wants... well days are never pleasant... it all began when he wants to use my computer... so i say.. "i brought it, can't i use it first? u can use it afterwards" ... he of course refuses and says "its not your computer, its from me, so i am going to take it back and use it" then i say..." then why didn't u bring it yourself?" then he says.. "we are bringing the computer along so i can do my work" (i know what he's doing. clearing his email... work? SIGH. oh well.) i say.. "but i brought it, i wanted to bring it so i can connect myself and do my own stuff, u just said u wanted to use it here and there" he says.. "i want it for 2 hours." and then the argument repeats itself.. this goes on everytime we look for a food place, everytime i tell him we should just tip a little bit more... anyway, he's probably gonna use it anyway.. cos he wants to take it back if he doesn't get to use it... i guess.. well he even refuses to pay for my bread for tomorrow... so i had to pay for our breakfast tomorrow (my brother and i)... i really sigh at this. call me disrespectful, call me biased, or even childish... but i belive i'm old enough to follow my own principles and values....
no one ever wants to wash dirty linen in public... but. we are already transparent enough to God. what does it differ making ourselves transparent to the people we love so much. love thy neighbour.. love ur enemies... love your brother and sister. so anyway... well... i don;t know what the future holds..?
sometimes... can u owe someone so much.... that u have to submit and succumb to his every wish and fancy? perhaps as parents we owe them that much.. but as people... we just choose whether to give our respect...
- when do u know u are right.... when right or wrong is not determined by us, but by God's moral law... -
we never do... we just pray and hope that God tells us.
in his name, god bless...
posted by Matthias | 5:49 PM
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