there's a little bit of difference between us all...

well.. see there's a little bit different in everyone...
it makes us agree/disagree... it really determines how we get along.
just like me and everyone else...
on many different levels, how similar we are to each other really makes a difference.

Question : how good do you think you are?
Ans : i'm sick of that stuck up attitude.

So lets talk. i have these condescending friends. he won't say it but you can definitely feel how they think they're better than you. truly. But what they view as being better so differs from whay you feel as being better. So. on one level. its differing view points. Result? Conflict.
Thats it. we don't belong together... Neither do our social circles belong together.
So. Best way out of it? Leave.

"Think others always better than you"
then u should have at least the slightest bit of concern and care for them.
apparently not.

oh... anyway. i realised something. i'm not meant to be a leader. i just don't have that mentality. i lead better as a servant. so yup to all u leaders out there.... gd fer u. cos i'm outta here. i don't belong with u guys, i don't have the same mentality as u guys. in short. i'm different. and bcos of that.. i'm not meant to be one. i just can't cope with it.
u might find me where people are in need, and i'll rather lead there. i'll step up where the situation needs me to. apparently not here. i serve you to lead you.

and really. i wish people would stop using the f*** word. cos it gets on my nerves. in a way its a lack of respect. uncouth. barbaric. etc. like is it a way to fit in? cos i really think it is. u claim yourself to be such a person with such great qualities. but... can you be yourself?

in a way i write not to criticise anyone in particular, because i do not criticise anyone in particular. and despite everything i say.. to each person i know. its more than just one way i look at you. and i, like you, will accept the things i don't like in you; because of who you are to me.

i actually feel like i'm bitching. but nah i'm really not. i'm just drowning my hate here. before it gets e better of me. all my frustrations/anger/irritations. i'm leaving it here today.... this actually comes once in a while... yet it provides freedom for me.

Dear God,
of all i said above, it is a confession of my inadequacies and the mistakes i've made in my life.
in all my flaws and misunderstandings of the world, my life, others lives, and ur word... i just thank you for those that i understand. i guess... i will always struggle with my inner demons. until the day of my physical death. but rejuvenate me spiritually.... i pray. because i need more strength and more endurance in my life. i need courage to stand up and break free of all that bonds me to the world.. deliver me from my sins, and my temptations... and build me up, that i might be a dutiful and deserving servant of your name.
in you i pray, Amen.

-and i let it all go... my life-

*reborn in the spirit. with a greater vision for Him*

-i know what i'm meant to do-

*break free*