i watch them in envy..

today i gave cherlyn a lift home =) and.. well.. we really agreed on a lot of things. and the more i listened to her the more i realised how lacking i was in the present situation i'm in...
today i sat on e bench, and i realised how much i didn't wanna talk
today i prayed with aaron, and i realised how much i've drifted...
today i did so many other things, and i look at myself and see how much of that sparkle i've lost in me..... while i'm finding a little bit of that sparkle. perhaps its not enough.
today i talked to abigail and i realised how much i've missed out on..
and... today has been good day by my standards.. yet why did i have such a terrible time driving home.
there's another way of bringing up new leaders. throwing everyone in the deep end and see who survives.
what about me? did i?
cherlyn asked me what army guys needed most... to me, its "support"
there is a way of fixing things....
and i realised why i'm keeping it all in. i said "remember everything, i said u made it feel like home, i said thank you..."
and i realised i'm saying it very much like how i've always ended things in my life....
sorry ya, it's never been what i truly wanted.
adios.. =) amigos.

"i'm selfish in all areas of my personality... now prove your selflessness to me"

Edison said "its 99% pespiration, 1% inspiration"
don't give me that 1%.