huh.. see no volunteers

see no volunteers to pray for continentals.
its always been like that...
like u ask them to go, and haha.. ya like they will even support
but like who careS!
thanks zz for being so enthu and inviting friends. u brighten up my day tonnes.
to corrie and jane too.. and well i got all the tickets =)
i'm really happy roo is coming. haven't seen her in a while!! really looking forward to her coming!
well yeah =) so anyway....
i'm preparing JSS worship and my dear pianist doesn't know how to play half the songs. and i really don't know what to do about that now. sigh...
and lesson is kinda cheem cos its a lesson on apologetics... on -well- theology, and philosophy.. and they're only 11 -12 yr old kids
i wonder how they'll take it.. hope they';ll enjoy it! for tt i leave it to God.
anyway yeah i'm gonna put in much more effort into this sunday session bcos i think i've been neglecting JSS a little bit these days. and well.. i still have to do overview on ephesians 1. guess i'll make it really short. really. i don't have that heart or enthusiasm for YAG anymore.. u can see Aaron try pretty hard to rekindle that sparkle in me.. but well i'm really jaded so. ya
perhaps i need a break. but i realise if i take a break. tts it. i don't think i might return.
so.... well... perhaps i just need to wait for the right time. -slaps face-
after so long, haven't grown up in the church...u know...
fate just seems to break up your life.
somehow i'm also drifting from certain people.... and its just because of what i feel inside. like if i really leave. i dun want any baggage.. i want a clean break. i wonder if they can actually tell though.... perhaps they can...
on another note... i haven't been thinking much...
but i've been meeting a lot of different kind of people lately...
and slowly... well.. u might say i'm judging.. but i'm placing people into categories..like according to how special i see them, in what way they're special or gd in my eyes. and... well. while in a way, i'm discovering myself a little more. its because of this i really look at people now.. and really define how i'll treat people... i'm changing i guess... i don't think i really treat people tt differently before. but now.. i'm slowly edging closer to being nice based on merits. maybe i'm conforming to the world, maybe i'm influenced by my friends.. but well... whatever i know its always a change for the better. i do trust my instincts, my intuition and my feelings... just like i trust god.