why i sleep so much in camp...
i think people don't understand why i sleep so much in camp...
yes i'm tired, really i find it hard staying awake.
yeah i have late nights most of the time. but its an excellent way to pass time in camp also.
golly i'm not proud of it. i rather stay awake. don't like feeling so lazy.
mostly though, i think its because i think too much. it makes my mind all the more tired
plus i have been eating less... and a lot more other reasons. really i'm trying to catch up on sleep all the time.. i sleep late, and wake up early, so there's been lots of sleep piling up the last 2 years....
anywya this year, acs(i) has started taking in girls. on tuesday (the 1st day of school), i saw 2 girls. one was a hot eurasian that was slouching against the pillar in a mgs uniform, the other was this girl loitering around waiting for some guy. today, wednesday, i saw another 2 girls. think they were trackers. they looked good. though they seemed a little older than 17 years. okay, so anyway its more interesting seeing girls around, the whole culture of the school has seemed to change, nowadays, i see more boys loitering and staying back.. for obvious reasons i bet. haha its less private for me i guess... but who cares.
it actually makes life here more palatable. more of a joy. at least its amusing.
no one knows who i am yet though. but i bet they're wondering.. like who's this guy who comes in all the time with an army uniform.
me the prince of ACS(i)... what an interesting life.
today, my camp mates also passed around the book. God and the Atheist. think thats how u spell it, either that or its athetist. argh my english has so detoriated. anyway, its good they read that book and recognise there's a God, thats a beginning. just waiting for faith and love to come into the picture... thats gonna require some time.... invitation always open though, for them to come to church.
which brings me to another thought. i was thinking of asking my cell group... "why do you come to church?" i know some of them come for friends and all.. then u put that into perspective, definitely not the reason why u come to church. its not about whether your friends are around, or whether its convenient, or whether u can make friends here. its more than tt. social... i heard that a few times lately. think God is trying to send me a message. perhaps my church is becoming increasingly social, yet so are quite a few churches in Singapore. definitely a cycle each church goes through. i'm terribly mature, in the spiritual sense; much more than my years. And i have a very different outlook about the whole idea of christianity and the christian life and all compared to many others. not perfect of course. and still definitely teachable... but mature. so anyway, was wondering.. is it better to discourage people from coming to church if they come for the wrong reasons, at perhaps spoil the image of the church, or encourage to come in the hope that they'll wisen up, and perhaps build up the church... such confusion... God will show a way....
perhaps Divine Intervention will play a part here.
in another sense, i realised how i have to be really much more self-centered. it feels much better. i dun get so sad or depressed all the time. but yet, this will be a side i'll show to most people. inside me, will be a much more fragile person.... i'll be a treasure thats waiting to be found. for those that already found it, i'll bring them as much as i can, and share all the riches in my life with them. so anyway i was telling my friend about the type of girl i want. christian, nice, down to earth, and a deep kinda person. i need someone to thinks, and by down to earth i really mean down to earth, that stays down to earth despite all the compliments thrown to her. i want someone spiritually mature too... cos it makes a whole load of difference... the way they take life and treat others.
i'm actually looking to make new friends, but it always seems playing hard to get, gets u what u want more than trying to get. so like thats e whole pt of it all...
be e treasure that is waiting to be discovered. rather than search for the chest and find a bunch of seaweed.
yes i'm tired, really i find it hard staying awake.
yeah i have late nights most of the time. but its an excellent way to pass time in camp also.
golly i'm not proud of it. i rather stay awake. don't like feeling so lazy.
mostly though, i think its because i think too much. it makes my mind all the more tired
plus i have been eating less... and a lot more other reasons. really i'm trying to catch up on sleep all the time.. i sleep late, and wake up early, so there's been lots of sleep piling up the last 2 years....
anywya this year, acs(i) has started taking in girls. on tuesday (the 1st day of school), i saw 2 girls. one was a hot eurasian that was slouching against the pillar in a mgs uniform, the other was this girl loitering around waiting for some guy. today, wednesday, i saw another 2 girls. think they were trackers. they looked good. though they seemed a little older than 17 years. okay, so anyway its more interesting seeing girls around, the whole culture of the school has seemed to change, nowadays, i see more boys loitering and staying back.. for obvious reasons i bet. haha its less private for me i guess... but who cares.
it actually makes life here more palatable. more of a joy. at least its amusing.
no one knows who i am yet though. but i bet they're wondering.. like who's this guy who comes in all the time with an army uniform.
me the prince of ACS(i)... what an interesting life.
today, my camp mates also passed around the book. God and the Atheist. think thats how u spell it, either that or its athetist. argh my english has so detoriated. anyway, its good they read that book and recognise there's a God, thats a beginning. just waiting for faith and love to come into the picture... thats gonna require some time.... invitation always open though, for them to come to church.
which brings me to another thought. i was thinking of asking my cell group... "why do you come to church?" i know some of them come for friends and all.. then u put that into perspective, definitely not the reason why u come to church. its not about whether your friends are around, or whether its convenient, or whether u can make friends here. its more than tt. social... i heard that a few times lately. think God is trying to send me a message. perhaps my church is becoming increasingly social, yet so are quite a few churches in Singapore. definitely a cycle each church goes through. i'm terribly mature, in the spiritual sense; much more than my years. And i have a very different outlook about the whole idea of christianity and the christian life and all compared to many others. not perfect of course. and still definitely teachable... but mature. so anyway, was wondering.. is it better to discourage people from coming to church if they come for the wrong reasons, at perhaps spoil the image of the church, or encourage to come in the hope that they'll wisen up, and perhaps build up the church... such confusion... God will show a way....
perhaps Divine Intervention will play a part here.
in another sense, i realised how i have to be really much more self-centered. it feels much better. i dun get so sad or depressed all the time. but yet, this will be a side i'll show to most people. inside me, will be a much more fragile person.... i'll be a treasure thats waiting to be found. for those that already found it, i'll bring them as much as i can, and share all the riches in my life with them. so anyway i was telling my friend about the type of girl i want. christian, nice, down to earth, and a deep kinda person. i need someone to thinks, and by down to earth i really mean down to earth, that stays down to earth despite all the compliments thrown to her. i want someone spiritually mature too... cos it makes a whole load of difference... the way they take life and treat others.
i'm actually looking to make new friends, but it always seems playing hard to get, gets u what u want more than trying to get. so like thats e whole pt of it all...
be e treasure that is waiting to be discovered. rather than search for the chest and find a bunch of seaweed.
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