my friend said when i am bored i should write.

well umm...
being left behind...

Do you believe that we are living in the final age..?
like that these are the last days... and that soon we'll all go up to heaven...
and well... narrow are the gates, and few enter it...
and who are these few... that do?
can i look around me, can i see myself entering that gate?
is it not heart-wrenching if i see my friends and family standing on the other side....?
will i enter that gate? do i believe enough in myself? i really don't know...
the sky's the limit, and well where am i? one foot tall?
am i assured of that place in heaven?

or could have the last days passed. could it be that the great holocaust of WWII be the end of days, and we were all left behind..?

yawn
anyway feeling kinda dreary now...
i seriously doubt what i bring to the world.
like what am i here for..? to feel sad..?
for others to forsake me? for others to shun me..?
why issit there are those who openly welcome u with open arms, and yet there are those who blatantly shun u.... hiding their dislike for u behind them?
truly misunderstood am i.
my friend makes a lot of sense when he talks to me.
i struggle all the time.
why is it so?
like i know it is a gd sign if u struggle all the time with urself and with the world.
but are u allowed to feel tired? are u allowed to take a break?
i am definitely overly sensitive and emotional to be a guy, yet i am not at that stage where i should be a girl yet.
i might not be the guy that the girl i like wants in her eyes, yet... i hope i am someone people will cherish in their lives.
yet it is all in God's plan, and well... i wonder if all these struggles go to naught,
what would i think?
is life worth it then??

As the newspapers write up more and more about the blatant indecency of the youths in our society today, what i see is the rotting of our society, how its going from bad to worse. and perhaps just looking at the people around me. i see the young people being corrupted with senseless nonsensical thoughts, and a way of life. and perhaps only a few out of these are sane and sensible/serious enough to take the right path now. i don't know what to do... like where are those like me..?

the people like me...
who are these people like me?
we represent the new generation.... yet corrupted by the world.
can i hope for a better future.
perhaps thats why life, thats why our faith is just like a chicken and the egg...

we were created, for our own destruction.
we live, for our deaths.
those that struggle look forward to their lives with hope and life, yet those that enjoy look forward to a in-evitable death.
we grow up, so we can understand more about our innocence.
we came from God, and to God we return.
evil stems from good, just as good stems from evil...

travel back in time... into the past.
back to where we came from,
to our innocent exuberance,
to that optimistc outlook on life and growing up.
to that sinless state.
perhaps then, what would be the end of days...
which way should we walk towards? ultimate salvation, or away from the detoriating society?