matt is really bored.

matt is really bored. and by really bored it means all he can think about is being bored and like thats all to look forward to, and all tt he has done...
when matt is bored, he doesn't think about much. or mebbe he thinks too much. matt does not bother about a lot of things already. its like a phase in a year. where he's so exasperated, so frustrated, so unhappy about a month ago. then it all gets better, and that's where he's at now.
so anyway matt thinks and he thinks about a lot a lot of things.
he thinks about yesterday how it was just wasted away and he doesn't remember a single thing about what he did yesterday, nor how long it lasted or anything even remotely vague. so thats yesterday. matt thinks about today when it was a pretty blah day, nothing really interesting happened and that like kinda set e mood. matt is still sick, and matt is feeling damn uncomfy right now. like he can't say a word....
so like where am I in my life right now....
Kinda stuck in between.
in between so many things..
in between people
in between moods
in between weeks
in between phases....
so in between.
not that it matters.
sigh can't be bothered now... bothered too much lately.
what a dull entry.
okay lets spice it up...

so anyway, shall talk about something interesting...

my dream for my future.
i am a family kinda guy, and well tts what i'm looking forward to.
think would like to imagine like grass fields, and grassfields of land... horses, ponies....
fields of golden sunflowers! then a quaint house... w/ a chimney...
on e other side of the house, a beach, a beautiful white sanded beach... w/ e waves crashing against the shore...
well, must have a swing cos i grew up with swings!!! ... haha and kids playing around.
well have like my good friends all being my neighbours... we having picnics on e beach...
picnics, high teas, barbecues, early morning walks, movie nights, etc....

sigh i miss all those....
so gonna cut short tt dream just there and talk about my childhood..


had a really fun childhood.. i can still remember.. the times where i stayed in e east... in still lane..so beautiful, it was dead end lane, which meant that we could do almost anything on e road! so i would race my remote control car over there...! or ride bicycles or play with the dogs in e neighbourhood... my cousins and all would come to play very often too!! well but still lane wasn't the most fun, the most fun was staying in e old Sheares Hall in NUS!

i'm a proud baby of NUS - Sheares Hall!!! like one of the few babies to be born inside! from young, i would roam the jungles of the neighbourhood.. there was this huge forest there... was really fun, out of it came lal kinds of bugs, animals and all... so anyway my family reared fishes.. and i had a few tanks all to myself. and they were all so beautiful it caught a trend and soon all the students in Hall A - where i stayed - starting rearing fishes too!! and they would always invite me to go to their rooms to check them out. so anyway... 1st thing 1st. i took a banana tree from this constrcution site that was about a foot tall, and grew it up! in like 3 years it had its first harvest!!! i eflt like a farmer. but just seeing the bananas made me really happy. like a sense of achievement. so one day, everyone in sheares hall A had bananas! haha and it was really sweet, the sweetest u'll ever taste. so we would catch spiders, snails, caterpillars, centipedes, crickets, snakes, chameleons, earthworms! basically i was like tt little kid in movies, anything i can get my hands on i get my hands on. i think i successfully grew 4 caterpillars into butterflies. i caught cockroaches, spiders. but they are kinda dangerous and sick so i always end up killing them. It was really fun cos everytime i go to school i bring a new animal like a tadpole, an earthworm or somethign and the class would have tonnes of fun with all the stuff i brought. Why i even caught a wild dog before. but it wa skinda dangerous cos there was a pack of them and the dog got kinda sad after a while... they were all pretty fierece. caught a blue coral snake which is really dangerous, a grass snake. saw a monitor lizard, kingfishers! kept a tortoise from the jungle which was attacked by a water rat one day. there were snails 10cm long. my worst experience was catching silkworms cos they infested my banana tree so i caught all of them so they wouldn't ruin it. but they all would bite their way out of the container i kept them in and like run around the house. whcih was really sick cos its like a worm running around ur house. anyway i also kept rabbits and all... but the most fun part was hanging around with the big kor kjors and jie jies i had there!! they were a great bunch and i have really great memories of all of them... i really miss them.....
rem the times they would bring me along for walks....
rem the times they would go catch fishes with me.....
rem the times they invite me to their room to read comics....
or just play with me...
rem the times we watched all kinda movies....
rem the time they play darts with me....
rem the times they would carry me around....
rem the time they brought me along for inter hall activities...
such fond memories..
all my big brothers and sisters....

SIGH! how i miss those days.
well guess i can still have fun like that, but well.. with my little brothers and sisters now!
i've grown up... i'm growing up...
perhaps its time to stop reminiscing those fond fond... sweet memories of mine.. and now look forward to that dream! i wanna make more memories. i wanan lvie in my dream...