hmmm stepping back

hmm... i think i have to resort and rethink out my life.
like so many things are/could be going wrong now.
hmm i'm trying to stem the tide.
well maybe i'ev been kinda immature at times, maybe i've said and done things that i shouldn't have. maybe i think too much u know!
well... but its not usual thing that i get pissed, unhappy yes but pissed?
well oh well its okay... i guess i'll take a step back and
well.... okay i'll say its my fault.
i'm willing to shoulder the blame, take responsibility for everything tt happened?
hmm well yeah... like i don't wanna be unhappy or angry.
so well... if u see me don't worry cos,
well anyway, yeah i'm not perfect, i do make so many mistakes i am so aware about and that was probably one of them.
perhaps its time to sit on the beach once again, alone and just think about everything that has passed in the last few days, to take stock of what i've done wrong, what ungodly things i have done, what i should do.its definitely time to pray once again.
well, i'm really just kinda blurred by everything going on. i'm in the shadows, unaware of almost everything happenign around me. and i gues its okay to stay that way.
perhaps one day i'll learn all about it....
ya...