Day 08th December 06 Saturday

2nd day of GAW.
and Results were out.. for an hour anyway.
didn't do too well..
what am i supposed to do?
some things are out of my control...
i just did what i could... i still got what i got. Thank God.
think a lot of people around me did so much better... thank God again.
and they tell me the same thing my jc classmates used to tell me when i was struggling.
"just try harder..." everyone's so good at studying now.
heh. one big "HEH" for you guys.... *shakes head*
it could be the passion in what i'm studying that is lacking so much.. maybe that hinders me.
somehow, academics have fallen out of my life... don't understand why.
i used to be good at it.. well, a long time ago in primary school...
now.. *laughs at myself*
it doesn't really matter i guess, i just keep trying.
"the day i give up is the day i've failed... "

don't know if i'm happy.. or really troubled, and even so; by what.
had a really uneasy night yesterday.....
think i didn't sleep much.. it was bad dream after bad dream after bad dream...
had to pray to go and sleep..
prayer does work wonders... =)

i hope i don't disappoint anyone...
esp you..
if i had one wish, it'd be that i'd be a little more perfect for you.
come back soon k... i miss you.