right now, i could drown myself in a thousand pails of water...
and i feel myself gasping for life
really.. my smile can't hide it, neither can my eyes.
i am a wreck.. a huge wreck... and i don't know happinness when i see it
i miss all that i have.....

i let my insecurities get the better of me...
when i should have believed.
but nothing... except God can turn back time now....
even if i wished for it.

really, maybe i'm not worth the trouble...