you know i used to wonder about myself.

family is very important.
and i'm tired.
i need more love around in my house.
i don't want to wake up like today
and keep thinking of what to do, and keep getting bothered by things.
i just want things to be straightforward for once, like a maths equation.

that, i'll contemplate so many different aspects and implications of something now.
i owe it to my parents.
that i'll have such a multitude of random thoughts and such vivid imagination, i owe it all to them.

maybe thats what makes the difference?
not just in studies, but in me.
that i don't have to wake up half the time thinking, but i could just live life as it always is....
without trouble.

trouble creates stress. especially when it means so much more to you.
increased stress compromises performance. a compromised performance results in less expectations, yet less expectation increases hope. and more hope leads to more disappointment, and more disappointment creates struggle, struggle creates trouble.
another chicken and egg scenario!

but i have God. we have God. =)
he cracks the egg open and asks u to come out and follow him.