Love

i'm rewriting this post.
its been a while.
i've reconsidered my thoughts before i write it down.
and here it is.

i'm not going to talk about myself, though this is my blog.
and i would really like to talk about myself, because i do need an outlet of thoughts so often.

rather, i'm going to talk about others. not in a critical way of course.

well, lets start with my grandparents.
i know they've shown me more love than i've ever shown them.
In my heart i really love them. Yet i don't know how to show it.
Its only when my grandpa left a few years ago, i remember every single detail of the love he'd shown me. and i've learnt to remember and cherish it.
you know whats the greatest things about grandparents? they shower a lot of love on their grandchildren, because they don't see the bad pts in them, but yet they cherish the good.

well parents now.
well parents are kind of different because they see the best and worst of you. they do love you, but they don't show it all the time. sometimes they're blinded by anger, or frustration. Perhaps as children, we'll only show them the love when we're old. reciprocated love, when we start to cherish their love when we realise we now lack it in our lives. i wouldn't say my family hasn't its fair share of troubles, and i do have to admit it has affected my life more than many could imagine. And people just don't know, and they don't see, and they'll never understand because family is unique. but your parents always love you. perhaps we don't truly love them enough.

Well, brothers and sisters.
They're very forgiving, they love u a lot too. But being on the same social standing, there's a sense of pride involved as they want to make your parents proud. so there's a little tinge of competitiveness too. but once u look past that, usually, its love underneath. and this love really bonds u, not just as family, but as friends as well. this love is something u can count on.

well the above group of people are really special. Why?
though a little bit of it has to come from biological links, but its wonderful Simply because they love you without any expectation of reciprocated love. that you might frustrate and anger each other at times. but u know that their love is pure, and they do it out of nothing, just out of the goodness of their own hearts. u know, thats why its so special. they're always there to show u love if u ever need it.

Well lets go on.
Well.. besties. best friends.
your best friend is the closest thing that comes to family.
the only difference is that, perhaps u both started out from somewhere, probably from an act of kindness, or persevered service.
with besties, trust needs to be gained. but since u're besties, usually the love begins to evolve into a sense of family, self-sacrificial love. perhaps not as majestic because in a way, the love had to be built up. but besties do go through a lot, and the love thats built up becomes very very strong. besties are like family. in fact, they are.

well other friends
other friends do love you, but perhaps it gets more sporadic. they still love you, but its not as sacrifical as one would like. Sometimes it depends a lot more on reciprocated love. if u don't reciprocate, as a friend, perhaps i'd show u a little less love.... but they do care, and they'll remember to love you from time to time.

acquaintances.
well we should love everyone, that we know, even our acquaintances.
but acquaintances perhaps don't really have much room in their hearts to truly love you. the love they'd show u probably doesn't mean that much, but it is still love nonetheless. love is there (for some, not all), but perhaps i wouldn't call it great love, if any. usually, acquaintances are around for other reasons..

just a note: you know, i'd believe if u really wanted to love everyone, everyone would have to be family in a sense. not acquaintances, not just friends, not just in the title sake, but real family... wholly trusting in them. truly would i say then, that u love them.

well next would have to be true love.
true love is special. while true love needs to be built up. true love starts off from a very "pure" love. its not perfect love, but it has to be pure. true love encompasses family love. and the basis of it, is just basically that "i love you" and nothing else. true love starts from love itself. it has everything in love, and is as limitless as love; and thus it needs to grow, becoming more perfect each time. there's no reason for true love. the only reason is love itself.

Lastly.
God's Love.
you know i can't explain this, because this is "love"
and this is where it all starts.

Readers, take strength in his love. grow in Him, revel in his love. its where it all starts.