k.. a post.
waking up today has been nothing short of easy.
I've been a little bit too slack lately, and today, i realise how much work i have.
So its time to get into "focus on studies" mood....
Today, the topic of "i'm holier than you" just popped into my mind.
Its of course, something wrong. In essence, i mean the attitude that the statement brings.
After reading through my sociology text, my social work text, and my maths and MLE. I realised, its very hard to split your head into 2. Look into things from an "artistic" and "abstract" point of view, with the other half of your mind focused on facts, figures and formulas. Its so contradictory. i'm being torn apart. I always feel that one side is going to suffer at the expense of the other. I can't go brush up on my vocabulary simply because i don't have enough time to use new words that i learn; gasp i'm nowhere near, listen to the numerous "cheemology" terms others use. I have to practice all those formulas! *stress*
Anyway, Sociology has been nothing short of interesting. However, i'm not absorbing it very well. There's so much information, and you always wonder if you'll ever fit all of it inside that teeny-weeny little head of yours. Reminder : our brain capacities are limited. Social Work on the other hand, has been pretty much freeform, and the only things you really have to remember, are all the technicalities, the terms and all that. Lets not get to maths and the other sciences. Critical Thinking and writing has just been an english class where you feel the teacher is no better than you in the language, and its just a matter of perspective and opinion. Yet we must remind ourselves to remain humble. We are students after all.
Soon to be workers, but students for now. An engineering graduate who has a PHD in physics told me how he's shedding the tag of engineer. Its just too dangerous handling all kinds of sophisticated, dangerous, and highly toxic equipment and materials every single day. Can you just imagine the amount of chemicals you're going to breathe in every single second you're in the lab? Put your differential equations to work and figure that out? Its way too dangerous, and they're basically "paying you to kill you." Talk about sacrificial love. I quote, " Women have babies out of love and as a service to their country." Fallacious Analogies. Yet you see my point.
"A good engineer is a dead engineer!" (If you know where this comes from, yet i'm bounded legally to not say the other version) This is much more true. I'm not discouraging anyone to be an engineer. Its just a choice, so many people enter engineering as a profession because it pays well; me included. Why not choose God? He pays even better.
Today Prof Ernest Chew went over the 2 deaths 1 birth and 1 death 2 births comparison. Its cliched, its over-used. And then you remember. God pays you, not to die, but to live! Remove all inclinations of the prosperity gospel stepping onto your toes now, and look at it with an open-mindedness. Don't believe this because of what you get, but really because you do believe. There's just one answer and i don't have to tell you about it. I don't even have to show you it. Jesus shows himself to you, you just have to open your heart.
As I'll say to you, a muddled myriad of thoughts do not make a picture until they've been organised and pieced together like a puzzle. When the mosaic is complete, only can you make sense of what you've just thought and said. I'll continue to remove all the missing pieces from inside the box i keep in my bag (the word); and when its complete, this picture will speak much more to me, than i'll ever have the capacity to understand; yet all I need to know is God.
God is love.
i love you.
waking up today has been nothing short of easy.
I've been a little bit too slack lately, and today, i realise how much work i have.
So its time to get into "focus on studies" mood....
Today, the topic of "i'm holier than you" just popped into my mind.
Its of course, something wrong. In essence, i mean the attitude that the statement brings.
After reading through my sociology text, my social work text, and my maths and MLE. I realised, its very hard to split your head into 2. Look into things from an "artistic" and "abstract" point of view, with the other half of your mind focused on facts, figures and formulas. Its so contradictory. i'm being torn apart. I always feel that one side is going to suffer at the expense of the other. I can't go brush up on my vocabulary simply because i don't have enough time to use new words that i learn; gasp i'm nowhere near, listen to the numerous "cheemology" terms others use. I have to practice all those formulas! *stress*
Anyway, Sociology has been nothing short of interesting. However, i'm not absorbing it very well. There's so much information, and you always wonder if you'll ever fit all of it inside that teeny-weeny little head of yours. Reminder : our brain capacities are limited. Social Work on the other hand, has been pretty much freeform, and the only things you really have to remember, are all the technicalities, the terms and all that. Lets not get to maths and the other sciences. Critical Thinking and writing has just been an english class where you feel the teacher is no better than you in the language, and its just a matter of perspective and opinion. Yet we must remind ourselves to remain humble. We are students after all.
Soon to be workers, but students for now. An engineering graduate who has a PHD in physics told me how he's shedding the tag of engineer. Its just too dangerous handling all kinds of sophisticated, dangerous, and highly toxic equipment and materials every single day. Can you just imagine the amount of chemicals you're going to breathe in every single second you're in the lab? Put your differential equations to work and figure that out? Its way too dangerous, and they're basically "paying you to kill you." Talk about sacrificial love. I quote, " Women have babies out of love and as a service to their country." Fallacious Analogies. Yet you see my point.
"A good engineer is a dead engineer!" (If you know where this comes from, yet i'm bounded legally to not say the other version) This is much more true. I'm not discouraging anyone to be an engineer. Its just a choice, so many people enter engineering as a profession because it pays well; me included. Why not choose God? He pays even better.
Today Prof Ernest Chew went over the 2 deaths 1 birth and 1 death 2 births comparison. Its cliched, its over-used. And then you remember. God pays you, not to die, but to live! Remove all inclinations of the prosperity gospel stepping onto your toes now, and look at it with an open-mindedness. Don't believe this because of what you get, but really because you do believe. There's just one answer and i don't have to tell you about it. I don't even have to show you it. Jesus shows himself to you, you just have to open your heart.
As I'll say to you, a muddled myriad of thoughts do not make a picture until they've been organised and pieced together like a puzzle. When the mosaic is complete, only can you make sense of what you've just thought and said. I'll continue to remove all the missing pieces from inside the box i keep in my bag (the word); and when its complete, this picture will speak much more to me, than i'll ever have the capacity to understand; yet all I need to know is God.
God is love.
i love you.
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