things can be interpreted 2 ways.
things can be interpreted 2 ways....
is it a sign of hope? that i perhaps should persevere? or is it sign to tell me that yes, my path elsewhere has been set in place, and i can leave with a calm presence of mind.
the more i think about it. the second interpretation seems more likely.
finally... i feel very free. very happy.
as i said today during my overview. i showed a little bit of what i felt. did u catch it this time?
"one is better than none", and so many other things i said.
i also look within my social circles in church and i realise how and why i don't fit in anymore.
its not really a matter of like me not having friends, or not having people that i can rely on. rather its more of the social hiatus in church. the social situation. it is by no means the way God has worked out things.
my church is disunited. do u agree? i guess.... pray about it, people.
so onward, forward with my life. i didn't exactly have a pleasant time at JSS though i think today, the guys learnt quite a bit. Its because of how they are. and well.. as i ORD, and as i go on my trips. i feel that sense of freedom. really i feel being able to soar... no more does all those things pressure me. i feel really happy. to break free from everything. to u all.. i bid u farewell =)
and i say sorry for anything wrong i've done to u, esp to one of u, i offer much thanks as much as i say sorry. for your fervour in serving and doing your part has been so prominent. but i say sorry that i'm draining u out by putting u in the various places u're serving today. i hope u accept it. and i guess for so much more...
i leave not in sadness but in the inner voice that tells me its "on to greater things" i go... and how i have to fulfill my dream elsewhere... that my paths leads me away from where i am now.
i am a dreamer. and dreamers dream of heaven. i do too.. i dream of my path..
how every rock has been set in place for me...
how everything must be perfect to convince me i am and have chosen the right path.
yet.. there are some things i am still waiting for perfection to show itself.
i have so many thoughts that manifest themselves in my heart..
feel the cold wind....
experience the warmth.
i've received spiritual rejuvenation the whole of last week.
and i thank u all and thank U god for that.
i wonder if saying goodbye has ever been easier than this.
its like leaving the world behind..... u leave it, when you have no unifinished business
i feel that way today.
on to thailand and to the USA.
its always more than it seems. Praise God for all his Grace and Glory.
is it a sign of hope? that i perhaps should persevere? or is it sign to tell me that yes, my path elsewhere has been set in place, and i can leave with a calm presence of mind.
the more i think about it. the second interpretation seems more likely.
finally... i feel very free. very happy.
as i said today during my overview. i showed a little bit of what i felt. did u catch it this time?
"one is better than none", and so many other things i said.
i also look within my social circles in church and i realise how and why i don't fit in anymore.
its not really a matter of like me not having friends, or not having people that i can rely on. rather its more of the social hiatus in church. the social situation. it is by no means the way God has worked out things.
my church is disunited. do u agree? i guess.... pray about it, people.
so onward, forward with my life. i didn't exactly have a pleasant time at JSS though i think today, the guys learnt quite a bit. Its because of how they are. and well.. as i ORD, and as i go on my trips. i feel that sense of freedom. really i feel being able to soar... no more does all those things pressure me. i feel really happy. to break free from everything. to u all.. i bid u farewell =)
and i say sorry for anything wrong i've done to u, esp to one of u, i offer much thanks as much as i say sorry. for your fervour in serving and doing your part has been so prominent. but i say sorry that i'm draining u out by putting u in the various places u're serving today. i hope u accept it. and i guess for so much more...
i leave not in sadness but in the inner voice that tells me its "on to greater things" i go... and how i have to fulfill my dream elsewhere... that my paths leads me away from where i am now.
i am a dreamer. and dreamers dream of heaven. i do too.. i dream of my path..
how every rock has been set in place for me...
how everything must be perfect to convince me i am and have chosen the right path.
yet.. there are some things i am still waiting for perfection to show itself.
i have so many thoughts that manifest themselves in my heart..
feel the cold wind....
experience the warmth.
i've received spiritual rejuvenation the whole of last week.
and i thank u all and thank U god for that.
i wonder if saying goodbye has ever been easier than this.
its like leaving the world behind..... u leave it, when you have no unifinished business
i feel that way today.
on to thailand and to the USA.
its always more than it seems. Praise God for all his Grace and Glory.
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