on a spree

ahh.. i just wrote a whole bunch and it accidentally got deleted..
anyway i was just saying how...
i am on a writing spree now.... 5 posts in less than 24 hours definitely seems to prove that.
i just wondered how my friends really know what is going on sometimes.... sometimes i really seem to pour out so much into this blog... yet i know the limits of privacy. i'm well aware of that. and sometimes perhaps i'm not really putting every single thing inside..
sometimes i feel that i'm a 100% input, 0% output. someone with deep rooted problems, yet so unwilling to share it, someone that is afraid of being embarassed, afraid of conflict, afraid of losing things. but i have to, someday.
anyway i just went for a swim. and while i swam, it reminded me of getting baptised a hundred times over... it feels like u're being cleansed, inside and outside. and how good it feels, as u feel everything being washed away and u being able to start anew.
my mood changes apparently as it transits from the previous few posts to this one...
and sometimes i laugh at my naivety... how perhaps i should be as the bible says.....
to be as wary as the serpent, yet as innocent as the dove.
God is perfect and as christians we all know that.... now we just wish he would share some perfection with us. =)
on a brighter side.. i really wonder what the future holds. i don't know about tomorrow, i just live from day to day, i don't know about the future....
"how much are u looking forward to heaven?"
look bright at all the blessings around us. God has given more than we have asked for

- would you smile once more, or not smile at all -

"a promise of something beautiful"