S-i-g-h.
I'm sorry....
You know,
i don't really know what strength entails,
because i rather be weak so you can feel strong.

i'd rather be poor, so you could feel rich
i'd rather be nasty, so you could feel nice
i'd rather be stupid so you could feel smarter.
and maybe i already am all those things.

but... all that i am, is not because of me, but is because of God
and he has graciously accepted me for who i am.
just as i accept everyone for who they are, even if i might seem to struggle with it.

i am sorry....
accept me...?

its always a struggle when we lose a part of ourselves.
but it makes us stronger.
and cherish and build on the things we still have.

If i had a dream, i'd be a nobody.
insignificant.
with nothing.
and at least i could make the choices i really wanted to make.
rather than get influenced by what i already have.

i made the choice that i really wanted to make, with you,
without any influences.
with nothing at all.
and God let it be.

Remember, that to me : I am nothing.
and you are everything.